Gifts Abound

Right now, as I type, God is answering prayers in my life. And I’m humbled.

They aren’t what you might think of as the biggie prayers. But they are important to me and my family.

I am not extremely superstitious. However, in the last week, certain things have happened so specifically that we knew God was opening doors. Have you ever had that happen (do tell!)? It was kinda creepy…

And I’m scared.

Scared because I will lose control. The vicegrip I have on security – it will be gone.

Scared because I will fail. And I will be the one to blame.

Scared because it will be new. And the old – the comfortable? – it will be gone.

Scared because I will have to trust God. And trust my husband. And I’m used to trusting me.

So while I’m sitting here just thanking God for caring about the little things in our life, I’m also shaking in my boots. Peace is there, but courage is lacking. Could you pray for courage for me?

Courage that I will trust?

Courage that I will be able to say good-bye to my comfort and my control?


P.S. Sorry to be so cryptic, but nothing is completely decided yet. I will definitely share at a later date. I promise!

7 thoughts on “Gifts Abound

  1. Lauren

    That is awesome! Try to flip your perspective and let the loss of control be a freeing thing (not a scary thing). Coming from a woman with a very similar personality as you (I think–just from reading your posts), that’s a big statement–but I know it can happen! And when it does, you’ll feel the PEACE that can only come from being smack-dab in the middle of God’s plan for your life. Praying for you!

    1. Stephanie Post author

      Ooooo that’s what I need Lauren – a freeing thing! This control is totally binding me. Thank you!!

  2. Karyn

    When I was little, my parents bought me a steering wheel that attached in the backseat and I could pretend I was driving. I would turn the wheel, switch gears, etc. I loved it and would get so consumed that in my mind, I was the one driving. I was thinking about this recently. I’m often so afraid to take my hands off the wheel, thinking I’ll go in the ditch, that I don’t even realize I’m not the one driving. My wheel is a toy.

    All this to say, I understand the control thing. I will pray for you and I hope you can let go of the wheel! The real driver will not steer you into the ditch!

    1. Stephanie Post author

      Karyn – You’re so right, girl. I LOVE the toy wheel analogy b/c that is so me. Thanks for encouraging me today.

  3. Mary

    I have definitely witnessed God working in mine and my husband’s lives in such a way that it was impossible to deny His hand in it all. Our marriage had it rock bottom (story for another day perhaps) and I had, HAD to leave my current job. At first I was scared because it was my first job right out of college and I had let it mostly define me for two years. My husband wanted me to quit without the security of another job already being landed, but at the advice of one of our elders at church, we didn’t do that. Everyday there was something pushing (guiding?) us to any direction that moved me away from that job, and just less than three weeks of seeking a new job, a family friend had a position open suddenly in her company when just a few weeks before that there was nothing available there (she had mentioned at the time of my initial search that I would need lots of prayer to find a job). So I interviewed once and, with all odds against me because my background had nothing to do with the credentials of the job at hand, God blessed us with a job that is in every way the opposite of what I was doing before, including no overtime (previous job kept me at work at for late hours at the drop of a hat, causing my husband and I to not really be able to plan things and miss dinner with each other often), a much smaller atmosphere to grow within to find my niche, and a manager I can actually relate to and be myself around. It was very evident that God had been present for all that to happen so quick for a job that I would never have applied to before, and now my relationship with my husband has grown since we can make all kinds of plans together (or not any at all and just hang out one-on-one) and work stress is gone. I was also able to see how trusting in God can be an effortless joy at times which was and is a beautiful thing. Thanks for letting me share and I’m thankful for your blogs.

    1. Stephanie Post author

      Mary – See!? That’s exactly what I’m talking about – so great – thanks for sharing!

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