Right now, as I type, God is answering prayers in my life. And I’m humbled.
They aren’t what you might think of as the biggie prayers. But they are important to me and my family.
I am not extremely superstitious. However, in the last week, certain things have happened so specifically that we knew God was opening doors. Have you ever had that happen (do tell!)? It was kinda creepy…
And I’m scared.
Scared because I will lose control. The vicegrip I have on security – it will be gone.
Scared because I will fail. And I will be the one to blame.
Scared because it will be new. And the old – the comfortable? – it will be gone.
Scared because I will have to trust God. And trust my husband. And I’m used to trusting me.
So while I’m sitting here just thanking God for caring about the little things in our life, I’m also shaking in my boots. Peace is there, but courage is lacking. Could you pray for courage for me?
Courage that I will trust?
Courage that I will be able to say good-bye to my comfort and my control?
P.S. Sorry to be so cryptic, but nothing is completely decided yet. I will definitely share at a later date. I promise!