Sometimes it’s dangerous to be real. To be candid. To be willing to lay your guts on the table for all to see. To hope that God will use your ugly stories for His glory and His gain and His kingdom. To pray that others will fall more in love with Him because of your weakness.
It’s dangerous; but it’s worth it. Trusting God’s calling and dying to the world’s perception – it’s how you take up your cross daily and follow Him.
After pouring my guts out here in this public place lately, I have had some wonderful things happen:
People Questioned My Marriage
Huh? You call that “wonderful”? Yeah, I do. You see, because of my stage in life and work and maybe a dash of that untouchableness that people mistakenly attribute to pastor’s families, I have only a few close relationships. Laying bare my struggles is an opportunity for people to see the ugliness of my heart and the beauty of my God.
Plus, the people who checked up on me after reading (or hearing about) some of my recent blog posts) did so out of love. They truly wanted to make sure I was safe and loved. And I am.
More on this later, but just because I am daily tempted by something does not mean that I am caught in its sin (although I am not proud enough to think that can’t change in an instant). Thank God for this:
No trial has overtaken you that is not faced by others. And God is faithful: He will not let you be tried beyond what you are able to bear, but with the trial will also provide a way out so that you may be able to endure it. (1 Corinthians 10:13, NETBible)
Some of You Have Been Helped
I am SO thankful for those of you who have commented and emailed on my posts lately. You have been an encouragement to me. It’s difficult to be vulnerable in any media, but when one of you tells me, I needed to hear this because I am struggling and don’t know what to do, I know God has called me here for a reason.
You’re Still Here
I admit – I have been checking my site stats quite a bit lately. Anytime I noticed a dip, I thought, Oh boy! There they go! They didn’t want the real me; they wanted fluff! But no. From what I can tell, you’re all still here. Thanks for staying even though I’m a flesh and blood sinner.
We’re Pressing On and Pressing In
So that’s it! I just wanted to clear the air for any of you who were wondering if something was going on “between the lines”. We’re moving forward, praying that God brings us closer to Himself daily.