High intensity; high stress; high output; high energy.
But sometimes this means I suck as a mom. (I mean, we’re all crummy sometimes, aren’t we?)
I was talking to a lady recently who said, “I really do believe we are super women. We can do it all, and we can be amazing at everything we do.”
I have to say that I disagree. Yes we are amazing multitaskers. Yes we have Ironman endurance that we sometimes use to rock babies. Yes we can and do excel at and outperform our male colleagues in the work place. (I mean, I know I can. Heehee.)
But be amazing at all of these thing at the same time? No. It doesn’t happen. I know because I’m one of the most efficient people I know. I’m not bragging; it’s what I do – I look at systems and streamline them. (If you’re starting to feel like you don’t measure up to me, don’t worry – I don’t have an athletic bone in my body, and I spent 6 years playing the flute to just be so-so at it.)
And I don’t have just one priority. Yes, I love my husband. Yes, I love my children with every breath. But I don’t think I’m called to worship them. I’m called to worship my Creator. So He comes first. And sometimes He calls me to love and serve my neighbor, a stranger, or the “least of these”.
And sometimes when I heed that call, my children “suffer”. Or at least, that’s my myopic view of it.
Case in point, for Samuel’s third birthday party, we held a fundraiser party. We did this last year and loved it so much that we did it again! (And I hope to share a post about that, too ;))
Well, we were so busy and engaged in invites, food, decorations, hosting, etc., that we never gave Samuel his birthday presents or card from us.
Samuel has tons of toys and books, and he had a blast at his party. The kid is lacking for nothing. But I still feel like a schmuck. Really – not even the card?? Nope. Didn’t even get the card filled out.
I was wrapping those presents today (a few weeks after said party), and I felt so scummy. As if I forgot his birthday to begin with. But honestly, I don’t think I did anything wrong in this case. And I’m a HUGE proponent of owning up to things.
I truly think we were focusing on what God wanted us to do. We got to bless our precious boy and the children at Rajah Children’s Home. Samuel got to see that our gifts come in many forms, including gifts to bless others. Including obedience to the Lord.
And I think it’s healthy for him to see that mommy is not perfect! Mommy doesn’t have to do everything well! I can’t do and be everything Sam needs; only God can.
And what child doesn’t love having new toys a month after their birthday, anyway? 🙂