Fight for Time with God

As a mom with 2 young kids (and a third on the way!), it’s been difficult to set a good pattern of having time alone with God.

I personally find it difficult to focus on Bible reading and prayer in the evenings, so I always strive for the mornings. There have been periods where staying connected was doable, and there have been periods where it seemed impossible!

Accountability helps! For a time, a friend and I would text each other early in the morning as a reminder to quit hitting snooze and get up already. That definitely helped me to quit laying in bed as long as I wanted to (which would be forever).

We started with 6:30am, I think. A reasonable time, I thought! Plenty of time to get ready and have time with my Lord before the kids get up. (This was before public school :))

My daughter, who was 2 at the time, would somehow smell in the air that I was up, and there she’d be, climbing into my lap.

Sigh, I’d think. I’ll try again tomorrow.

Well 6:30 was then her new wake up time! I tried to read, but it was distracting.

So my friend and I went for 6am. We’re good rule followers, you see. 6:30 didn’t work? OK, 6 it is!

Ahem. Guess who still somehow figured out I was up and therefore so was she? Yes, indeed.

These days, my pattern of getting up is not an issue – public school calls, and thus, so does 6am.

And since this rule follower cannot fathom being late, I’m up right on time. So, I do usually get to start on some Bible reading/journaling before my kids are up, but day after day, this time is not my own.

But this time is already not mine. It’s His. It’s for me, but it’s devoted to Him. And He’s given me these two, almost three, gifts to join me in the mornings. All I can do is be faithful with what He’s called me to and keep fighting for that time with Him.

But this interruption is not perfect in my mind, so I just want to throw in the towel instead!

Sigh – well I tried God! I tried to listen and hear and read and pray, but these babes interrupted and now I can’t think! Why even try?!

This is what I’m tempted to think.

Then, not too long ago, I was reading in Mark and realized Jesus was constantly interrupted during his time with the Father.

Then Jesus got up early in the morning when it was still very dark, departed, and went out to a deserted place, and there he spent time in prayer. Simon and his companions searched for him. When they found him, they said, “Everyone is looking for you.” (Mark 1:35-37, NET)

That’s what I feel like sometimes – everyone is looking for me so they can be fed or warmed or dressed or cuddled or talked to!

I’m pretty sure Jesus had quite a better devotional life than I do, and I’m quite sure people were looking for him for different reasons than they are looking for me. 😉 But reading that comforted me in this issue like nothing before.

It challenged me to stay connected to the vine. To fight for that time and that relationship! To not give up.

So whether you fight your alarm clock or kids or just your own wants in the morning, join me in fighting for that deserted place with God, would you? Let’s get up when we can, spend time with the Lord until that interruption comes, and accept grace for the gap between what we thought it should be and what it was.