This Texas “fall” is killing me, y’all!!
It was seriously over 90 degrees yesterday – on November 2!
Getting 3 kids in and out of the car multiple times, helping with buckles, answering questions, meeting delays and demands, school pick-ups, errands, playground, HEAT!
Ugh! I just don’t have the patience for it anymore! I get super duper grumpy when I’m hot and am staring down the sun whilst children do what children do. I need to move to Alaska to be a better mother!
No, I think I’d complain about being cold… Hmmm.. ok California then! The weather there is perfect year round (so I’ve heard!).
Nah. Too expensive. Then I’d have to work more and commute more and yuck. Those are on my “least favorite” list.
Colorado – I love Colorado!
Nope – they actually have real winter for almost 6 months. I’d love the other 6. That’s it – I’ll become a snowbird!!
Hmmm, then I’d lack community and family and stability for my kids.
Ok, ok, so maybe I’m just not a great mom and it has nothing to do with my circumstance!
Once that air blasts me in the car, I’m all of a sudden smiling and engaging my kids in the “good mom” way again. I’m praising God – but what about before? Yuck!
I know God covers my sinful moments with His grace. I know it – but I want to be perfect! I don’t want to mess up.
…I’m idolizing myself, aren’t I? I’m trying to be God again instead of letting Him be who He is and transform me at His pace and worship Him. I want to be worthy of worship instead.
And I’m barely worshiping these days as it is, but in my one reading I made it to this week, was this:
The body that is sown is perishable, it is raised imperishable; it is sown in dishonor, it is raised in glory; it is sown in weakness, it is raised in power; it is sown a natural body, it is raised a spiritual body. (1 Corinthians 14:42b-44, NIV)
I know God will fulfill the desire to cast off this nature in Heaven, and in the meantime and for eternity, I want to turn the worship of myself all to Him who is truly worthy!
In those difficult moments, I need this reminder that Jesus is the resurrection of the dead – He is the king. He’s greater and more worthy of worship than any comfort or convenience or strength that I have.
How are you trusting in God’s word today?